Last night the congregation of New Life Presbyterian Church (NLPC) accepted my resignation.
The decision to resign was a very difficult one to make, but I have come to it with a sense of constraint after prayer, consideration and deliberation with those closest to me. The last two years have been the toughest of my life. Though there were precious seasons of refreshing during the lockdowns there have also been tremendous disappointments. There were times and of great spiritual blessings and many reasons for rejoicing, but it was time also marked by betrayal and grief: betrayal by a presbytery I once trusted and grief at the loss of a congregation and some close friends. I have felt the toll of this both physically and emotionally, and I have decided I need to take some time away from pastoral ministry.
My hope is that this time will be something like the season Elijah had "by the brook Cherith." My desire for this time is that I may be like Enoch and walk with God. I have no other ambition.
I know that some may be seize this news as vindication. Others may write to suggest this is God's judgment on me. I have received such notes before. "But to me it is a very small thing that I may be examined by you, or by any human court; in fact, I do not even examine myself."
I know this: looking back on the events of 2020 and 2021 I would change nothing except (as I have written before) that I wish I might have been more careful in my blog writing to express my love for those on the other side. My decisions and my ministry through that period have been heavily criticized, but I still look back on it with a clear conscience. I acted on biblical principles then and could not now or ever do otherwise.
In a recent blog article I wrote,
"Believers sometimes experience very great darkness. And in that darkness we are plagued, as the hymn writer put it, “with many a doubt… fightings and fears within, without.” But still we know we have a very great Saviour. Whatever we may be, we know that He is worthy. We sometimes listen to the accuser when we ought to listen to Jesus, we sometimes doubt where we ought to believe, but there is never a time when the name of Jesus is anything less than wonderful to our ears, and never a time when we are separated from His love."
I am living that dark night now, but the Lord is faithful and He is worthy. I am thankful for the opportunity to spend a season working with my hands and I look forward to restored health and the opportunity to again pastor the Lord's people.
Dear brothers and sisters, greetings in the name of King Jesus. I am writing to you because the Church - on the whole - seems to be in very much the same place it was 2 years ago. I said in April of 2020 that it was my conviction that the Church...[ abbreviated | read entire ]
There is so much confusion in the Church regarding the subject of homosexuality and 'transgenderism'. Here I respond to a reformed writer whose thoughts on the subject are dangerous but all too common: I recently read an article which seems to...[ abbreviated | read entire ]
The following was originally written in May of 2021 when I was still the pastor of Faith Presbyterian Church of the ARP. Now that the trial is past I am free to share it publicly. I have since removed some irrelevant sections and added italics and...[ abbreviated | read entire ]
I offer here a brief update on the Church of God in Aylmer which has been made 'famous' by Henry Hildebrandt. Because of their recent stand for freedom and for the right of churches to gather, Henry and his congregation have become well known and...[ abbreviated | read entire ]
"Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new." We have chosen the name "New Life Presbyterian Church" to bear witness to that reality of new life in Christ. By the grace...[ abbreviated | read entire ]
I have been asked repeatedly about our connection with the Church of God (COG) in Aylmer. When the questions first started to come I had never spoken to Henry Hildebrandt and knew very little about his church. In the weeks and months that followed...[ abbreviated | read entire ]
Faith Presbyterian Church (ARP) was planted in 2012. As a church we subscribed in full to the Westminster standards, and we were resolved from the beginning that our allegiance would go to Jesus Christ alone. We knew Him to be the only Head and...[ abbreviated | read entire ]
The Canadian presbytery's decision to censure and excommunicate me has raised a lot of questions. I won't attempt to answer all of them here. Instead, I would like to offer some clarification. First, the Vanguard presbytery of which I am now part...[ abbreviated | read entire ]
We are thankful for the Lord's provision these last few weeks. The new work is going forward and the Lord's hand seems to be with us. There is fresh energy, joy and hope among us. Though we are not yet publicly announcing our new location, we are...[ abbreviated | read entire ]