(SALT LAKE CITY) Freshly unemployed, former business executive Bruce J. Colburn flew to the far northwest corner of Montana in search of a place to die.
Colburn was one of at least 33 people who chose to end their lives last year in a national park. The number is higher than recent years, although the National Park Service hasn't consistently tracked suicides.
I have struggled with thoughts of suicide since I was about ten years old, this after my mother talked about suicide once. I used to hide under my bed when my parents weren't home, because I was afraid of hurting myself. Having to deal with aftermaths of head injuries, mental illness, depression from childhood and a crippling illness, I still struggle.
Most of my life has been sorrow, illness, and alienation from others. My first head injury was a car accident at 3 weeks old, I had a head injury from being hit by a vehicle at 7 or 8 years old, I had a fractured skull in both inncidents. I was hit by a van while riding my bike at 13 years old. Persons with head injuries often are outcasts, because they are not like everybody else. Not to mention it damaged my emotions something terrible and I struggle with constant surrealism, which the neurologist says there is little head way in treating.
Please pray for me, I want to be a better witness in Christ. I need help to love and have good will for my enemies. I am shut in (crippled from arthritis)and am in poor health. Cabin fever takes over and it feels like I am under house arrest. God bless you brothers and sisters!
I like to explore National Parks from the comforts of home by watching DVD's of National Parks. This saves me a lot of money because I do not have a lot of money and I also would not know what to do if an animal wanted to eat me.