Greeting's Brother Norman in the matchless name of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. To you who are sanctified by God and preserved in Jesus Christ and called. Brother you are in our thoughts and our prayers. Know that you have brethren here who love you and will be here for you all the time. We are to bear one another's burdens Gal. 6:2 so never feel like it is a burden to talk to a brother. I think as Brother Lurker and Brother Michael and Mike has mentioned that it is a good thing that you concerned because one who is not saved would not be concerned at all Brother. There is an amazing video by Brother Mahan or the audio I want to recommend to you it is called free from sin. Here is the link
This sermon lets us know that even as Christians we sin but oh we have a great advocate in heaven our Saviour the Lord Jesus Christ.
Rest in our Saviour Brother, as Brother Lurker said turn off YouTube, E-bay and the Radio and seek the Lord's face. Jonah is a great example along with many other's of God's faithfulness to His people.
I pray that the Lord Jesus Christ will give you back your first love for Him Brother and that He will use you mightily for His glory.